count the bodies like sheep

Mmm…this would have to be Shaneda and Park Yong Ha. (weird on that the day I write this, he’s found dead….)

Shaneda: I just want to say sorry that you weren’t able to live a full life and graduate high school with all us. I really do miss you and all the fun we had. But I want to tell you sorry for being such an asshole (you didn’t know; just emotional and internal shit I had probs with in 8th grade). I wish I could show you how much you meant to me. I’ve been trying to get in touch with Martin, but I can’t find any if his websites or anything. Nobody I’ve talked to has contact with him. Just want to see how he’s holding up, y’know? well, I guess I’ll just end this by saying that I really do love you. You were a dear friend to me. oh, and if somehow you could make yourself easier to find in the cemetery? ‘cause me and Tanya busted our ass looking for you for hours.

Park Yong Ha: I wish I could’ve stopped you from killing yourself… somehow. Your music was so touching and you were such a talented actor. I can’t believe you kept up a happy facade for so long; that must’ve caused you so much pain. I was concerned when I saw your twitter updates about you having to take sleeping pills (I was afraid you’d accidentally overdose or something…), and I knew your father was terminally ill, but I didn’t think it would lead you to suicide. So many people miss you; all these pictures of your friends and fellow celebrities crying over you…it’s so sad to see.  But well, I just want to say I hope you are happy and burden-free wherever you are.

Keisuke Honda is married.

Somehow, that makes me more sad than I thought it would. Maybe it’s because he’s so young that I didn’t really expect him to be married already.  :’c

ah well. he’s still a hardcore japanese mofo  :’D

I have no reason to watch the World Cup now.

Japan’s gone. South Korea’s gone. Mexico’s gone. and Portugal’s gone.

well. wtf. all the teams I love….

great. now I got to wait 4 more years to see them again  ;_;

I’ll probably be married by then….. @_@

Mmmm….this would have to be Chao & Peter.

Peter, you have an excuse!~ what, with Korean school and whatnot.

Chao….you are lazy. and a video game addict.  T_T   haha.

I used to have a lot of internet friends….

now I don’t think I really have one; at least, not one that doesn’t live within like 2 or 3 hours of me.

I guess as of right now, Michael is the coolest.

okay so, dear Michael:

yeah, your cool. lol. I just recently started talking to you, but yeah. sorry if I creeped you out the way I found you, haha. but it’s awesome you like street fighter!~ thanks for going through all the trouble with helping me set up GGPO; I appreciate it (though I have yet to fight anyone ‘cause no one is patient enough to let me get connected, LOL). you are a very smart guy (as I saw from all your computer knowledge, holy crap, haha.) I hope you do good and succeed in college and life! maybe we can hangout sometime.

OH. I just remembered Kei.

DEAR KEI: I haven’t talked to you in a long while…but the times I have, you are so badass. I love that we have so much things in common; and thank you so much for the christmas card and teddy bear! It really meant a lot for you to send that to me, even though we do not know each other in real life, haha. but if I ever head near San Fran., we will fuckin chill. and thank you for fighting over Super Junior members with me. I HATE THAT YOU TOOK EUNHYUK! lol!

I LOVE YOU BITCH!~

<3 angie

[I have a few people I want to write to, lol~]

DEAR:

MewMew - you are such a cool and nice person. Even though we dated only for two weeks our freshmen year, I still remember when you asked me out on Valentine’s Day and gave me a cute red teddy bear, lol. I still have it <3 and I still have the kitty you gave me too (I am using the green sweater it came with to keep my dog warm during cold weather 8D hahaha). I find it weird that we never kiss or did anything during those two weeks (I didn’t know shit about dating, and Matt told me you were scared to kiss me? afraid I would punch you or something? lol). But I just want to thank you for still being my good friend after we break up, and we can talk so comfortably and stuff (even though Meredith always rubbed in that you love me?). But I wish you would quit doing weed and cigarettes and whatever else your doing  T_T  It’s so bad for your health. Let’s keep being awesome friends though  <3

Seth - I have not seen you on over 4 years. But I still remember you so clearly. You are so cool! but I cried so much over you, lol! I remember I was always so jealous of Brittany and Emma, and Poof too. oh well. You are still cool (and have a changed quite a bit for the better ^^). So let’s hangout sometime soon.

Tommy - I don’t know where to begin with you…. -___-….. lol! I wasted A LOT of time liking you (over 2 years to be exact). I still find you so intimidating….haha.  You are a cool guy though. I just wish we could talk easier. I feel like I messed things up with you when I asked you to prom/told you I liked you over Facebook (but what was I supposed to do? I wanted to ask and tell you, but never saw you). Wasn’t the way I wanted to do it, so sorry. I only saw you once a year over a course of 2 years. not that great huh? but well, I just hope we can be alright friends in the least. I want to IM you sometimes, just to see how’ve you been, but I’m afraid it’d be weird and such. ah well. Just mainly want to tell you that I hope you are really successful in life alright? sometimes I feel aggravated when I hear your name, but that is my own problem, haha XD  maybe one day we can chill over a cup of coffee or something.

p.s. - you don’t know how much trouble me and nelson went through just to hangout with you as homies, hahaha~

1minute1second:

“You’ve slept all day, you’re going to have a hard time sleeping tonight.” 

Don’t doubt my napping skills, srsly.